A Memoir- Then and NOW

Like every other day, I was sitting in my bus, to reach to my usual destination early morning.. A morning which is, more or less, same as that of any other day. just that the air around was different today. An air that soothed every sense alive in me, flashing a memoir of a life time in front of my eyes. Bringing back all the sweet-sour moments spent with the most special people in my life. Even though all those special ones are not with me in the present day, I know that they'll always be there in my mind.. I know that whenever I'll look back they'll be there standing with me.

I see through my mind and see myself happy, laughing. Its so churlish how time passes by. It's like it was just yesterday that i met someone for the last time, or was it the first...?

A moment ago i was sending texts to my dear ones sitting in the same old bus, wishing a "GOOD MORNING" or a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"... Just sometime back i was talking to my best friend on the phone and told him that I couldn't talk louder for I had students around me. And I very well remember him provoking me to say things that i rather shouldn't. I look back and I see those times fyling by when I used to be a school girl. Then, all we cared about was scoring good marks in all the possible test that we were obliged to write and just in case that shouldn't be the case, how shall we present the matter to our parents. Owning a MOBILE PHONE, then, was a real big deal and sending an SMS an achievement. Good old days......

A tear escaped my eyes bringing me back from the dreamland to NOW. A place where everyone in too busy to laugh, and too mature to enjoy the essence of madness in every passing second. I know I can't live back the moments then spent, but I'd escape to that DREAMWORLD on every possible occasion, where I WAS HAPPY.

We say that "change is the only constant" and I believe it too. I know life moves on. Ergo I'll have to move on too.. But this DAY today, with all of its tranquility, gives me the Hope and Belief and soon enough I shall be HAPPY AGAIN. :) :)

i'm so damn confused...

What would be your reaction if after days of cursing someone, you find the fault was yours...?Yeah you got it right...I made it...How could I be so dumb...?I cursed this person for doing nothing wrong. He's one of my best friends .., he's out to U.S for his M.B.A, which luckily enough, instead of completing in 2years, he got the graduation degree within one... Yes you got it right, the long distance is the main cause of all the misunderstanding, but it wont ever go if I would not stop being skeptic....Why do I have to suspect someone...I know I trust him, but then, there's something within myself that I need to mend. I need to understand his study and job needs, I cant b demanding of him to talk to me all day long... I know this blog is the most stupid Blog anyone would have ever read, and so am I ...I know my problems, in know how to clear them, yet, I'm lost on where to start from...May be some outside spectator could help...May be... I'm not even sure of that......

can ya please help me...

sometimes its so difficult to differenciate whats going right and whats not,...
people believe me to b lucky..i dont any reason why..
yeah its true that i do have someone or the other to b there in my times of grief...
but that doesnt make me lucky enough... i mean i stil do have grief which is not ending...
isnt it...?

am i welcome...?

hey there, i'm a first time blogger, i dont know if i'm welcomed, but i surely wanted to expree my view....